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Week 19

Next sonogram in 5 days. I can’t wait! We should find out then whether it’s a boy or a girl.

I’m kind of hoping for a girl because I have all this Stuff that I loved as a child that I want to put in her room, and I really have no idea what of it would be appropriate for a boy baby’s room. I guess it doesn’t really matter until the baby’s older…

But I’m hoping for a boy because they tend to be more active and it would probably be better to have boys earlier, while I still have some energy left. Watch me have four boys. I’ll never need to go to the gym again.

Ultimately, neither of us have strong preferences one way or the other, though I do want at least one of each.

So far, there’s definitely occasional movement in my abdomen but nothing that makes me jump. I think I’ve felt the baby move a couple of times this morning alone, but it could just be a muscle spasm here and a bubble there. We joke about the baby moving as much as its father, but I do have some minor concern about that for the last few months. I’m already having trouble sleeping because of these crazy dreams that keep waking me up at 5 am…the last three months with the baby kicking harder, I don’t know how I’m going to sleep at all.

Tomorrow marks week 20, the halfway point. Halfway already! and at the same time, it feels like it’s going so slowly.

Since we won’t find out the sex till Wednesday, and the One Week Boutique ends before then, I’ll be looking for neutral-colored baby stuff when I go tomorrow. Mostly I want to find a car seat, a jogging stroller if possible, a regular stroller (maybe), and possibly a crib or bassinet, though I’ve already had about five people offer their kids’ old cribs. I know there are a few people who are going to be looking to provide the big things new (and I do appreciate that), but I’ve gotten a bit overly conscious of the amount of nearly new stuff that goes to waste because everyone expects to buy completely new.

That’s been gnawing at me (more than it used to) since I saw the movie The Book of Eli. There’s one line in the movie where the young woman Solara, probably about 18-20 years old, is asking Eli about how things were before the nuclear winter 30 years in the past. He says something like, “People had more than they needed. We had no idea what was precious and what wasn’t. We threw away things people kill each other for now.” This is after we see how precious a dinky little plastic bottle of hotel shampoo was earlier in the movie.

And now I’m trying to get rid of all this Stuff from my childhood that I’d packed away in Dad’s basement…I can’t throw it out. There’s no reason to, except I’ve got more than I need, want, can use, or have space for, and so does everyone around me. I had to compromise on a bag of pens and pencils: the pens won’t write any longer, but the pencils are still good, so I threw out the pens and all the pencils that were broken into pieces too small to use. I used to have new pencils every school year (why?), and now I don’t even know if my kids will use all the ones I have because won’t they end up doing their papers on a computer?

I need to remember to get those boxes over to Goodwill today. I’d post the stuff on freecycle but it’s really just a bunch of little things. Maybe I will anyway…


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