Archive for November, 2011


So…normally Kaelie insists on being in my arms for no less than a half hour after I get home from work. But today, she popped right down to chase the cat after only a minute or so! Well that was a sudden change…At least she let me pick her back up again.

Since having a child, I’ve spent a lot more time feeling several conflicting emotions at once, often related to her growing up. Weird because I was never that interested in babies until I got pregnant, and I always pictured my kids at more than 4 or 5 years old (usually closer to 10). But I had a rough time a few months back when she started wanting to occasionally be not in my arms; I was both proud and sad, excited to be heading toward the major reason I wanted kids in the first place, but unwilling to let go of holding my little baby whenever I wanted. I got past that eventually, but I’m still regularly confounded by having both feelings at once. I am not accustomed to complicated emotions.

Speaking of sudden changes, in the last couple of days she’s started to respond in ways that show she understands what we’re saying. A few days ago, she had C’s phone in the car. He asked for it when we got home. She shook her head (she’s shown an understanding of “no” and shaking her head side-to-side for about a week or two) and he offered her a trade: the phone for getting out of the car seat. So she gave him the phone and was happily rescued from the hateful seat.

There was another one yesterday, but I don’t remember at the moment. I’m sure I’ll remember as soon as I put the baby in the car seat to go pick up C in a few minutes. And this morning, when I had on my coat and shoes to go to work, she tried to give me her own jacket. Awww…


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